Tuesday, May 08, 2007

The thrill is gone

I can feel it creeping up on me. It starts out with having a hard time falling asleep and then waking up every two hours all night long. It progresses on to wanting to sleep all day long and feeling paralyzed when faced with a task even slightly difficult. From there, it turns into an inability to focus on things that I really enjoy doing and typically find relaxing.

I'm referring to going through one of my depressive cycles. It's not bad right now, but I'm thrown that I am having one at all. Spring is typically a great time of the year for me mental health wise. However, the past two or three weeks have been a bit of a bummer.

It's probably not a big deal. People who don't deal with 'depression' per se still experience bouts of the feeling that nothing is producing any sort of inspiration.

Ah well. At the ripe old age of 35, I've been through enough of these to know when I need to seek professional help, and I'm confident that this too shall pass. Meanwhile, I'm living in the land of the 'blahs.'

Truth be told, the fact that I'm able to pinpoint it and blog about it indicates I'm probably coming back out of the cycle. This is good since I have a half dozen Mother's day cards I need to make tonight and tomorrow!

4 comments:

tj said...

oh crap ... mother's day! thanks for reminding me.

also, hope things start looking up.

TxGambit said...

I suffer from this from time to time too. People that don't, don't get it.

aimee / greeblemonkey said...

hope you are doing OK. and glad you could talk about it. we're here for you!!!

MPPs Mom said...

HUGS HUGS and how about one more HUG!!!!
I think it says a lot that you know the cycle and can see it and talk about it. Hopefully that has positive ramifications.
christina